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A Stranger City ~ Linda Grant

'It was impossible...to tell London's story; it was too large, too ancient, too many layers obscured, its stories were too contradictory, the the poor lives, in the journalistic phrase, cheek by jowl with the wealthy was a shallow simplification - the place simply defied narration.'

A copy of Linda Grant's new novel A Stranger City landed in my postbox by a stroke of good fortune because I'm quite careful about buying hardback fiction these days, and truth be told I wasn't that over-enthused about yet another London-centric, state-of-the-nation (bound to be) book (the last one I encountered was dreadful in more ways than I can detail here for now) when there's a whole lot more world to read about.  However, my Reading Friend had an advance copy on order and somehow two copies arrived. 'Would you like a giftette of the spare one?' came the message, 'Oh yes please,' went back the reply. By some miracle a hand-delivered copy appeared invisibly in our post box and I made a start, because our six-weekly-two-hour-non-stop-book-talk meeting was imminent.  None of this reluctance is to denigrate the centre, or the place, or the people who call it home, or the times we live in, it's just...well, you know. I'm losing touch with the capital as I get older and it gets increasingly expensive to get there, and stay there, and it isn't worrying me as much as it would have done, and I'd rather read about Antarctica or The Odyssey and go to art exhibitions in Penzance, so any book about real time London now has to sell itself to me very quickly.

It is February 2016 and the funeral of DB27 has just taken place over at Wanstead Flats east of the city. An unknown woman has jumped off London Bridge and police have been unable to find any trace of her. Detective Sergeant Pete Dutton has been investigating the case for seven months to no avail. One of the pall-bearers is busy bidding for a car on eBay (1965 Triumph Herald, colour olive and cactus, very unusual), Pete Dutton is late for the funeral and misses it, and a camera crew are filming events as part of a documentary about missing persons. I'd need to be sold by page thirty I had told myself before I opened the book, but as luck would have I was sold by page thirteen. DB27 ( Dead Body 27) buried in a deep pauper's grave where the coffins are layered, each life over-laying another it was clear I was in for a palimpsest of a read...or I'd just read too much into this space-saving method of burial about which I had no idea.

The plot is instant. Other people go missing, their lives will unfold and overlap, actual events are alluded to but never quite detailed, tragedies will happen, life will take a different track from the norm for some, others will have change imposed upon them, but each and every character is skilfully wrought, both human and knowable. To add to my enjoyment  this is a London well aware of its own shortcomings, delineating the difficulties of community, and the finding of and belonging to one in such a huge and seemingly faceless city. However another London is to be found just below the surface cracks, the London often hidden to outsiders. There is a timely reference to the hidden rivers of underground London, and likewise there exist those hidden but ever-present satellite communities, and when film maker Alan stumbles on one he has to work very hard to persuade his wife to move from their rented and centrally convenient but expensive rented flat to an old railway cottage..  

'Alan (and eventually even Francesca, who had stumbled and grazed herself badly against the double digits of the postcode) understood that this forgotten enclave behind the railway line was a tiny sequin in the fabric of London...'

Isn't that priceless. Francesca kicking and screaming against the move finally has to admit that perhaps there are benefits to this whole community thing after all and why not open a shop selling Persian rugs. Yes, why ever not.

Meanwhile the plot flows along, others, like Chrissie the nurse, live the peripatetic life of the flat share, or the room in a house, and with little sense of permanence and belonging other than, as Linda Grant suggests, in that 'most ephemeral place of all, online.' 

Of her many writerly skills one of Linda Grant's best, and one that I have come to associate with her, is the ability to cast a wry and perceptive eye for the humorous without being cruel. It's all about observation, seeing the amusing and then relaying it in subtle ways. I could mine the book for so many instances none of which would work out of context, but trust me I forgave all my own London misgivings as I read on. Humour is a tricky course to steer without descent into comedy but its presence in A Stranger City works and regularly grounds the book in the realities of life and sometimes their absurdities.

This brings me onto another of Linda Grant's specialities...fashion.

I'm guessing if I ever wrote a novel (I won't) it would probably major on illness and disease (human) and barn owls (I know a lot about them now). A Stranger City is liberally sprinkled with no barn owls but more fashion and cultural references than I knew existed. Google was my best friend for assuaging my ignorance about the Mies Van de Rohe chair, the Ligne Roset sofa, the Edwin Jeans,  Basquiat prints. There is Jo Malone in the bathroom (not Lidl's Handwash) the Hugo Boss suit (not M&S) hangs in the wardrobe, but these references are all about image and image matters. This is the world of parties and PR, about socialising and impressing people, and first impressions rely on image and cultural identifiers. I don't want to spoil the plot but suffice to say there is a moment when a mask is involved (for perfectly good reasons, not to rob a bank or anything) and for me this epitomised the invisible masks worn by each character in order to survive city life. In the end I was struck by the fact that the quest for community, and belonging to one, is probably no easier in rural Devon than it is in London, or Liverpool or Weston-Super-Mare, or anywhere. 

I mentioned  Chrissie the nurse, not the stereotypical nurse either, and I could write reams about her, it is my specialist subject along with barn owls after all, but suffice to say this moment crystallised it for me....

'On the wards people died, most often four in the morning, that's when the heart gives up at last, when there's no hope of dawn ever coming. She's sat by them and watched them leave and gone to tell someone who'd call to the family.'

Yes they do, yes it is, yes it does and yes you do... and many's the time I've sat alone with someone at that dawning final hour. I'd do the honours and then wander out and watch sunrise across London from the sluice and wish them well on their next journey. Linda Grant encapsulates that moment simply yet perfectly.

So there you have it. A Stranger City, and I survived this foray into London life as did my Reading Friend, both of us rating it a 'terrific' read over a pot of tea and toasted teacakes. Hie thee to library reservations if you are in the mood for a sensitive and well-written read for our times.

If perchance you have read A Stranger City I would love to know your thoughts...

And am I alone with my latter-day London literary aversion...

But what about 'old' London...any good reading recommends...

I've made a start on Fires of London by Andrew Taylor because I'm heavily into the plague and the city in 1666 and think this might be a fruitful reading trail...

By the way, in case you were wondering, this is a Basquiat print....

 

 

 

Simon Armitage - Poet Laureate

Having had a delightful ten years steeped in poetry and thanks in some part to Carol Ann Duffy, our last Poet Laureate, I am hopping around with delight at the selection of Simon Armitage as our next one.

I’ve made my way through much of Carol Ann Duffy’s oeuvre, even championed The World’s Wife on the radio ( A Good Read, some years ago now) and benefited hugely from the way that poetry is given greater exposure thanks to the Laureate’s different and developing role of providing more than an ode to mark a National Occasion. Mind you, weren’t we all grateful for Carol Ann’s reflections on David Beckham’s pre-tournament achilles heel injury...

Achilles
(for David Beckham)

Myth's river – where his mother dipped him, fished him, a slippery golden boy – flowed on, his name on its lips. Without him, it was prophesised,

they would not take Troy.

Women hid him, concealed him in girls' sarongs; days of sweetmeats, spices, silver songs . . .

but when Odysseus came,

with an athlete's build, a sword and a shield, he followed him to the battlefield, the crowd's roar,

and it was sport, not war,

his charmed foot on the ball . . .

but then his heel, his heel, his heel . . .

 

and I’m probably the only one who still reads and loves Ted Hughes’s Rain Charm for the Duchy., his 1984 'paean to the West Country rivers,' celebrating the occasion of Prince Harry’s christening. 

To digress, while we are on the subject of Odysseus you might remember that  through June last year I read a book a day of Emily Wilson's translation of The Odyssey and then told you afterwards (in case I didn't manage it). It was a marvellous reading experience, a wonderful summer journey and I'm planning to do it again this year though perhaps with a different version...maybe even Simon Armitage's. If anyone wants to read along too please do. There won't be any great literary merit to any posts...probably just occasional nice pictures of rosy fingered dawns, but it's always good to feel that I am part of something a bit bigger as I read. If you've always meant to tackle The Odyssey and never quite managed it, well this might be your incentive...that and the fact that the paperback edition of Emily Wilson's Homer is very covetable indeed.

Ted Hughes was frequently ridiculed and derided for accepting the laureateship, his poetry lampooned, but what a good job he did of dragging the role into the modern age, followed by Andrew Motion (who never quite took to it) then Carol Ann Duffy and now here we are with Simon Armitage and the whole thing thoroughly upgraded. This, from the Faber website cheered my heart no end 

'It’s a huge honour to be appointed Poet Laureate, one of the great high offices of literature. Over the past two decades the laureateship has become a working role, with previous laureates actively involved in the promotion of poetry and in numerous initiatives to identify and encourage talent, especially within education and among younger writers; I hope to build on the work of my predecessors with energy and enthusiasm.

Since the laureateship was first conceived many hundreds of years ago, Britain has changed enormously and the position of Poet Laureate has changed accordingly – I want to celebrate and speak on behalf of the variety of voices who contribute to the rich chorus of British poetry from a wide range of personal, literary and cultural experiences, and to help poetry explore its potential in a multifaceted, multivocal and multimedia age.

The poetry of these islands is one of our greatest achievements, and, as well as being proud of its traditions, I want poetry to feel confident and at home in the contemporary world and to demonstrate that, in a hectic and sometimes frenetic age, the combination of considered thought and crafted language is more relevant and vital than ever. I hope poets, readers and audiences will support me in my efforts.’

Yes, yes and yes, consider it done here and I have my Armitage shelf at the ready...

Last word to Matthew Hollis, Poetry Editor at Faber...

'Simon Armitage cut his own cloth from the outset. His boyish, fresh-faced poems made an unmissable impression upon the 1980s: political, tough-minded, astute, funny, realist and surreal in opposing measure. They persuaded readers that no barrier should curtail their adventure, no dogma and no gatekeeper. They spoke to the experiences of our streets and our schoolrooms, and walked around in the lives about us, marking a place for popular and literary cultures alike, freeing our vernacular from the locked cupboards of received learning....

It is more than a quarter-century since Faber & Faber became the proud publisher of Simon Armitage. Over that time he has led countless readers to new territories and made maps for a better nation. We cannot wait to see where he takes us next.'

 

Mary Ann Sate, Imbecile ~ Alice Jolly

Imbecile - A stupid person.

Mid 16th century (as an adjective in the sense ‘physically weak’): via French from Latin imbecillus, literally ‘without a supporting staff’, from in- (expressing negation) + baculum ‘stick, staff’. The current sense dates from the early 19th century.

I thought I'd better look up the meaning and origins of the word 'imbecile' because its one of those words that has floated along and possibly changed its inference down the years. I'd suggest used mostly as a form of friendly mockery or intense frustration of or with a. n. other person these days, but used quite seriously in Mary Ann Sate's day. Turning to Wikipaedia ...

The term imbecile was once used by psychiatrists to denote a category of people with moderate to severe intellectual disability, as well as a type of criminal.... It included people with an IQ of 26–50, between "idiot" (IQ of 0–25) and "moron" (IQ of 51–70).

What became clear as I read my way into this fictional 'found memoir' of the life and times of Mary Ann Sate was that she was none of these.

It was my pleasure to be invited to 'champion' a book from the current Rathbones Folio Prize short list prior to the announcement of the winner on May 20th, and I was delighted when my plea for Mary Ann Sate, Imbecile was granted. The book had crept quietly onto my radar not via the review pages because none had reviewed it, but via a couple of prize lists thus confirming the importance of their existence. Published by Unbound and therefore crowd sourced, Mary Ann Sate, Imbecile by Alice Jolly has been long-listed not only for the this prize and the Royal Society of Literature Ondaatje Prize but also commended by  the Walter Scott Prize for Historical Fiction. Yet no press reviews (until very recently) and its absence from the Women's Prize long list will remain a mystery to me, but then perhaps being passed over in this way segues well with the narrative of Mary Ann's life, because here is a book that gives a voice to the 'unheard' as the elderly maidservant Mary Ann Sate writes the  story of her life throughout the nineteenth century.

In 2008, in the very early days of the scribbles, I was invited by Oxford University Press to share a platform at the Oxford Literary Festival with Mark Thwaite and Professors John Mullen and John Carey. It was one of those nerve-wracking (for me)  'Bloggers v Critics' events when comparisons and inevitably criticisms of the latter day amateurs were being made and I was braced for the onslaught. We were seen to be scaling the ivory towers and it was all very contentious, however John Carey saw all this very differently (as you might expect from the author of  The Intellectuals and the Masses Pride and Prejudice among the Literary Intelligentsia 1880-1939)). He had read here extensively and was very complimentary about the way that the voice of the people was now becoming a matter of record. 'What we would give to hear the voices of the ordinary people from earlier centuries.. ' he said. At the time the scribbles were being digitally archived by The British Library as a social record for the future (they may still be, I gave permission).

Back in harness to a member of the family she has served in the past and who is now dying (painfully) Mary Ann Sate writes her own story alongside that of her 'master', though his takes second place to hers. Mary Ann privileges her own experiences, looking back on her life and creating tantalising shadows of events yet unknown and still to be explained. Set in the valleys around Stroud in Gloucestershire it quickly becomes clear that facial disfigurement is the cause of much misjudgement of Mary Ann's abilities and prejudice against her; she has been born with a cleft lip...

'A Devil Hare did cross your mothers' path...'

Destined to a live a life of struggle and servitude, first at The Heavens and then at Stocton Hall, where her employer Mr Harland Cottrell has taken her in as more of an interesting and useful oddity, there is little doubt that Mary Ann is in firm possession of all her faculties and no slouch at using them. Cottrell , a man of kind heart but uneven temper and possibly even more 'uneven' medical practice, employs Mary Ann as an unpaid servant and, against a backdrop of social change and civic unrest (Chartist riots, the 1832 Reform Act ) life in the mill town through Mary Ann's eyes is slowly but steadily revealed. Cottrell gives Mary Ann the opportunity of an education as well as repairing her cleft lip, and written in short stanzas the book  creates a vivid picture of the traumas and threats of change, and the dangers of the nineteenth century, especially for those living in poverty.  I was reminded of Hilary Mantel's words at Budleigh Literary Festival a few years ago...

'My greatest joy is to take a name and give them person-hood...a particle of being...doing honour to what is lost...'

Don't be phased by the size of the book at 600 pages, nor the vernacular which soon becomes familiar, nor the versified layout, but this was a book that required my full attention while I was reading it. I ended up setting everything else aside to concentrate on this one life, paying time to check into the spaces, the gaps that Alice Jolly creates in which to visualise the characters, the landscape, the work, the trials and the challenges, the smells and tastes too. And relishing the opportunity to get to know the indomitable and pragmatic Mary Ann.

The narrative is a tour-de-force, a stunning achievement, beautifully paced and measured, often as slow as the times, but how often have I looked at the tithe map and wondered about the people...seen the names in the village churchyard and conjured up the people here ...their life in this house, and yes, their deaths too. 

This is a book that transported me there and more.

There is a wonderful moment when Mary Ann realises she can read...

'Sudden it all clear as drops of dancing water
The words flow away from me
I know them all
My eyes fly down the lines
Inside I am leaping
For I can read

I leapt with Mary Ann because I wonder if you can remember the moment you knew you could read...I can. Literacy, never to be taken for granted in the nineteenth century, will be Mary Ann's shining glory and her greatest asset.

The impact of industrialisation and the threat it created for the workers is profound. There are no safety nets, life is precarious for many and punishment for protest and dissent is severe. Looking through the archives for our local press there are plenty of notices of transportation for poaching on the Duke of Bedford's land here too, as in Mary Ann Sate, Imbecile, many a villager dispatched to Van Diemen's Land. There is scorn for the lower orders and a mocking of new ideas, but Mary Ann is made of strong stuff. The poor woman's lot is not a happy one; powerless and subservient and at the mercy of one and all, but what she may initially lack in self-confidence Mary Ann makes up for in resilience and resourcefulness and most importantly survival.

Arguably there are parallels here with modern times, the impact of change, and progress in its name, on ordinary working people, on minorities (and majorities) and attitudes towards them, about giving them a voice and listening to it, about respecting their choices and decisions. It all made for a fruitful read as I made the comparisons with our Hour of Turmoil, and by the time I turned the final page I knew I had read something of a masterpiece. An epic six hundred pages of punctuation-less, sort-of-verse with beguiling rhythms and cadences that left me marvelling at Alice Jolly's skill and imagination and staying power. This is diligent, careful writing with astute attention to details, it has a sustained rhythm and flow which doesn't falter and must have required complete immersion and vision to write, and several years of it too.

In the end the book is written, Mary Ann has used her voice and recounted her life in her own way and knowing that it will soon be over...

'For we are but tenants here
A wind that passeth doth not return'

Except Mary Ann Sate and all those lost voices she represents have returned, in the pages of this book. In the immortal words of Hilary Mantel ' you are not dead if someone still talks about you.'

I wish Mary Ann (and Alice Jolly) much good fortune at the announcement of the prize winner on Monday.

 

 

The English Patient ~ Michael Ondaatje

Twenty-seven years since it won the Booker Prize in 1992 (maybe check my maths as usual) twenty-two years since I read The English Patient by Michael Ondaatje in 1997, a lot happened that year, more or less in this order from January...

I started six years of an OU degree in English Literature...

My mum died...

I had a full-time health visiting caseload of about 400 children...

I was sub-poenaed to give evidence in court in a child protection case concerning a family the multi-agency services had been working to bring back together for two years. It wasn't going to happen. It was awful...

Our own children were sixteen, fourteen and twelve...

We had moved house three years previously and it was a renovation work-in-progress...

I've checked my reading journal. The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy won the Booker prize and though I didn't read it, I did read sixteen others in that year.

Just sixteen books, how different my life was then to now. 

Amongst the books I read that year were The Crow Road by Iain Banks, Birdsong by Sebastian Faulks, The Magus by John Fowles, Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt, To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee, Alias Grace by Margaret Atwood and of course The English Patient by Michael Ondaatje.

Truth be told I really didn't quite follow or understand The English Patient in 1997, though seeing the film helped, and looking back I think this is hardly surprising because, having just read it for a second time, I can see it is a book that demands peace and quiet and above all thinking space. It's a book to put down and carry on sitting and pondering, not grabbing a chapter in my car in my lunch break whilst out on my visits and then rushing back for a baby clinic. 

Four war-damaged people holed up in a villa, once a nunnery, near Florence towards the end of the war. The German retreat has been considered and brutal. The countryside is laced with landmines and booby traps at every turn and whilst Sikh sapper Kip ('the warrior saint')  sets about defusing more of them each day back in the villa Hana cares for 'the English Patient'. The anonymous man so badly burned that he is unrecognisable and clearly dying. Into the mix comes David Caravaggio (thief, drug addict and now thumbless after Nazi torture) a character along with Hana who both first appeared in Michael Ondaatje's 1987 novel In the Skin of a Lion.

What I may have missed first time around I gleaned by the shovel-full this time. 

Hana, the young nurse traumatised by what she has witnessed and grieving for the loss of her father epitomises so much else that has been lost through war...trust, faith, love, home, safety, security and more.

Slowly the story of the English patient emerges, and here I really don't want to spoil the book in case you haven't read it, but whilst I missed the nuances and maybe even the plot last time, this time I was right on it. And thinking too about how cultish elements of this book became...

Wasn't it fashionable to clutch a copy of Herodotus and stick ephemera in amongst its pages...

Maybe Michael Ondaatje, along with Bruce Chatwin and his Moleskine notebooks, were partly responsible for a resurgence in popularity of  the commonplace book, the journal...

'And in his commonplace book, his 1890 edition of Herodotus's Histories are other fragments - maps, diary entries, writings in many languages, paragraphs cut out of other books. All that is missing is his own name.'

This time around The English Patient has stunned me, been welded to my hands for two days. It's a truly timeless classic. Michael Ondaatje creates a living and visible tableau in a place once given to devotion, silence and prayer, and something of its essence hangs in the air. For all its slow revelation of traumas there is a quietness to the book that soaks them up, absorbing the pain.

There were moments of deep peace too. Moments that surprised me...

When the gramophone is brought into the room, the music plays and the four have an impromptu party. I played some of the tracks...Solitude by Duke Ellington and Honeysuckle Rose by Django Reinhardt and Stefan Grappelli, doubling down into the atmosphere of the book and the moment like no other.

And thinking too how the internet has made all this possible. How much enjoyment it can add to a book to be able to play the music, or track down a poetic account of the stars and discover that it is from Paradise Lost...

These then, though unbeheld in deep of night
Shine not in vain, nor think, though men were none
That Heav'n would want spectators, God want praise
Millions of spiritual creatures walk the Earth
Unseen, both when we wake, and when we sleep.

Fewer people might have known that when the book was published.

And then the war must end with Hiroshima and Nagasaki and Kip, the disposer of bombs, is undone and with it came a sudden and profound awareness of that August day. 

So there you have it. The English Patient a book that has read differently as the cadence of my life has changed, and finally I understand what the rest of the world has been going on about all this time.

I'd love to know your memories, experiences and thoughts about reading this book...

 

 

 

 

Girl ~ Rebecca Goss - Poet

The Certificates

Mothers were not given space to write their occupations on UK
birth certificates until 1984. Source : General Register Office

The registrar takes his pen, tips its freight
of permanent ink to write Poet in the space
that did not exist beside my mother's name.

or my grandmother's name. Those bloody
sweat-drenched women sent back to hearth
and cradle, their skills cancelled, never known...

 

I have been reading Rebecca Goss's new collection Girl, (following on from the post about Her Birth earlier in the week) is from the cover information...

'In Girl, Rebecca Goss considers the emotional and physical connections women make to the world around them. The poems interrogate and celebrate female identity and experience, and the dynamics of family and friendship. From a woman struck by lightning to a baby who understands shadows, Goss navigates the real and the imagined with equal flair. At the heart of the collection is a distinctive, sensual series of poems responding to the work of the artist Alison Watt: the result is a fearless exploration of the female body and female desire. '

The collection is still very new to me and it will be a while before I can absorb it, but I'm sensing that affinity with a poet who has already made an impression. I'm thinking how new collections from the likes of Jean Sprackland and Alice Oswald quickly make their mark. The range and scope of Girl still feels vast and untamed to me at the moment, still unfamiliar as do all new collections, but poems are starting to impress and stay with me just as Her Birth did.

If you have ever had pleurisy then reading the series on pleurisy might resonate. Pleurisy 1 reminded me quite how awful it was...

At its most acute
she pictured an orb

phosphorescent
in a snare of a rib.

It eased to the pressure 
of a handstand,

executed
by someone fully grown

on her chest
and every cough

discharged small bombs
across her back....

I succumbed to pleurisy out of nowhere one fine day in August back in 1986 standing in a friend's kitchen. One breath fine, the next agony. I eventually went to the doctor with my 'pulled muscle' and emerged with antibiotics the size of torpedoes and had to set a timer to make myself cough every thirty minutes because it was so painful. I'd been walking round with three small children and pneumonia and had no idea, because aren't you always a bit tired and under the weather with three of them under school age. The pain, those 'small bombs' across the back, lasted for months. Rebecca Goss describes it all in five exquisite poems spaced throughout the collection.

And then that poem The Certificates I have quoted at the beginning...

My mother had four children in a decade,
each certificate proving nothing but birth.
My lineage? Patriarchal : father/farmer...

I don't want to spoil it because there is a delicious twist in the next few lines, but had I ever noticed that only one of our children's birth certificates has my occupation written in. The one born in 1985...

We keep the full copies here. I dig them all out to check and I am utterly astonished.

Did I think to consider it an injustice at the time.

These are definitely poems to make me think.

 

 

Barn Owl ~ Jim Crumley (and meet ours)

Let's be honest, I was duty-bound to do some pleasurable barn owl homework, and this little beauty, Barn Owl one of the 'Encounters in the Wild' series by Jim Crumley, published by Saraband Books, was a very happy find and a very enjoyable read.

Some time ago I wrote about The Company of Swans by the same author, a book that deservedly sits on my Best Books About Nature shelf and Barn Owl will join it.

Just to update...

Having seen two owls in the pole box we have only been seeing one for a few weeks now. By all accounts this is a 'Good Sign' suggesting that Mr is doing the foraging whilst Mrs sits on a clutch of eggs. Out he pops at about 9pm, and sits and ponders for a while. I walked up the field behind the house and the box just to get an idea of his view ...

Not bad...

Then he takes to the wing. We walk out along the lane and he flies over and around us, and back and forth to the nest box. As the light fades everything everyone writes about barn owls happens. Jim Crumley calls them 'ambassadors for life on the edge...the silent flier...'

They look so small and compact perched on their veranda...

and then she pops back in and he lifts off, and we see these huge wings.

Everything else that flies around us here has an audible flutter or beat to its wings, but not the barn owl, completely silent as it glides. And yes, he does turn his head around 180 degrees.

Watching barn owls on the Isle of Skye, Jim Crumley doesn't quite enjoy the luxury of the warmth of the bathroom vantage point that we do, which makes me realise that it might be quite unusual to sit and watch barn owls in such comfort (the Kayaker did a shift with his camera over Easter). But likewise, on a moonlit night, Jim is transfixed by his 'rarefied barn owl watching' as the owl ...

'flew around two sides of the cottage ...and burst with devastating slowness and silence into that tingling airspace...'

Wondering where ours was one evening last week I nipped across from the bathroom to look from a bedroom window at the front of the house. Acres of beautiful barn-owl friendly fields and I was hoping for a glimpse of him flying.

Nothing...

I opened the bedroom window to lean out a bit and he took off from the roof above my head. I didn't quite fall out with the excitement of the moment, but he'd obviously been perched there and me oblivious.

Jim Crumley recounts many-an astonishing encounter with Tyto alba, summoning up the most vivid impressions of a bird once met never forgotten. Bookhound and I have become complete Barn Owl Bores, except people around us here seem to be pleased and interested and more boxes will be going up I'm sure. We all thought they had long deserted this patch of the Tamar Valley so to see them back is heartening, but the book explains the cycle, the field vole 'crash' and 'plague' population phenomenon and the barn owls dependence on this food source. In a vole 'plague' year the owls will start breeding early and lay big clutches (oh please), maybe even try for several broods, whilst in the 'crash' years they decide not to breed. It will be too much like hard work finding food and they know it. The figures are startling, the barn owl's intelligence and resilience incredible.

So far we have only found one pellet. Barn owls cough up the undigestible left-overs from a meal in pellet form and make their nest from them, Jim calls it 'architectural recycling'. We suspect Mrs Barn Owl might be sitting on a veritable mattress of them up in that there pole box. And yes of course we dissected it...

I was intrigued by Jim Crumley's suggestion that badgers and barn owls are 'kindred spirits of the half-light and the half-dark, we'd call it the dimpsey, but of course they are. Nor did I know that badgers 'insist on the proximity of water' which explains the location of the setts around us here. We often see one lumbering along the lane at night, but Jim's account of the badger cub and the barn owl wins the day...maybe the barn owl is an unearthly sight even for a badger, they know to keep their distance.

But the modern world is fraught with dangers and hazards and Jim Crumley's elaboration of those had me wincing. HS2 the new high speed rail link from London to Birmingham...

'predicts the loss of the entire barn owl breeding population within 1.5km of the entire length of the route'.

The population is further decimated by rat poison, all of which makes doing our best by our pair even more important. In any case we've limited our own use of poisons and pesticide for a while now, and there will be no slug pellets this year either (I'm currently experimenting with coffee grounds), but we can't control what happens beyond our boundaries. Having spoken to the Barn Owl Trust to ask how we could help create optimum barn owl habitat, we then contacted the land agent (who agreed it was a good idea) and the farmer who rents the grassland around us (who hasn't replied) to ask if he would consider leaving a margin around the field behind the pole box when he cuts the grass. If we are here on the day they do it I'll go out and lie down in front of it or something.

Jim Crumley highlights the good conservation work being done by many of the organisations, and how grateful we are to the Barn Owl Trust for their endeavours with the Westmoor project here nine years ago. They are hoping to come and open the inspection hatch and look inside the box in June...if there are owlets apparently they are 'pretty bomb proof' by then. Fingers crossed, and meanwhile for the nearest next best thing to actually watching them, Jim Crumley's book is a winner...oh yes and then there's this (with thanks to Tommy Hatwell)

Her Birth ~ Rebecca Goss

Reading the new collection Girl by Rebecca Goss (my thoughts coming up later this week) has taken me back to the first collection 'Her Birth' which wowed me back in 2013.  I was just going to link to it, then I thought I'd just pull out an extract, but in the end I've almost made myself cry remembering how moved I was by this book, so with no apology, here's the whole lot; here are my thoughts from five years ago..

'In 2007 Rebecca Goss’s newborn daughter Ella was diagnosed with Severe Ebstein’s Anomaly, a rare and incurable heart condition. She lived for sixteen months. Her Birth is a book-length sequence of poems beginning with Ella’s birth, her short life and her death, and ending with the joys and complexities that come with the birth of another child. Goss navigates the difficult territory of grief and loss in poems that are spare, tender and haunting: ‘Going home, back down / the river road, will be a foreign route without her’.

Now when you learn of the subject matter you might think this collection would be far too sad to read and maybe pass it by for those reasons ..

...and I'll admit that reluctance was my first thought, quickly followed by my second thought. After my release from thirty years on the health visiting front line, followed by four years of working across the loss and bereavement forums as on online health visitor for Netmums and having only just emerged from the stresses and demands of all that, well did I really want to read more of the same??

And during my first golden summer of not working might this be a little too much like work...

All this until I opened and started reading what I think maybe one of the most beautiful, tender and lovingly written poetry collections I have read in a very long time.

Though unflinching and courageously honest in her observations, Rebecca Goss never slips into self-pity. As a reader I was alongside her but still watching from afar...somehow she created that distance for me, or maybe I am too well practised at boundaries. This wasn't my grief or my sadness it was Rebecca's, but I was witness to it, every facet and nuance shared and revealed, the unsayable frequently voiced, but often in a very new way.

Who ever gives any thought to the hospital room where the bad news is broken...

'No tabloids, no vending cups, no debris
of the bored and hungry, Instead
carpet, fireplace, neat homely items. 

'This is not the room where you wait for news,
this is the room where you are told it.'

And instantly, after all those years of nursing, I saw something about that room which I had never noticed before either.

There are fresh new interpretations of the familiar, the happy things, but expressed in terms of loss rather than the more customary joy and frivolity. The moment when, during an echocardiogram bubbles are wafted around the room to distract Ella...

'.................Keep clear spheres

coming around her head, wanting them to last,
each pop a small, inexplicable loss.'

...and with those few lines I felt I understood something of the desperation of a parent willing the results to be optimistic, willing their child to live.

Rebecca is no stranger to denial. The bare facts have been explained, spelt out, drawn in diagrams, cannot be avoided, but that won't stop a mother swathing herself in hope, reading meaning into the words in the dictionary, turning to the word 'palliative' and then shaping that meaning into something she would prefer to hear. 

And then the dreams, I defy anyone not to be moved or comforted by Rebecca's A Dream of Heart Babies ( a poem for their mothers)  as gathered on the deck of a ship 'a shoal of heart babies' slip into the sea

'in a search for chambers more complex than coral.'

Hauled back into the ship, the catch, the babies,

'Each one cups a new heart...'

I gasped and blinked back tears and knew that Her Birth is a poetry collection freighted with riches; insight and understanding to those of us who may not have been through this experience, congruence and comfort to those who have, but ultimately I suspect every reader will also emerge uplifted, lighter of step and filled with bright hope for tomorrow. This is not a book that weighs you down.

Rebecca Goss makes sure of that with her final section entitled Welcome. It begins with a poem that explains why she and her husband decide to try for another baby, before going on to catalogue the realities of the next pregnancy with all its memories of the past...

'The midwife holds a file, the sad biography
of my procreative life. My ability to bear 
the unhealthy means the doctor must locate
a lump of thumping muscle...' 

Along with the fears that I remember so many mothers expressing so often after the loss of a baby, there is another one, of how to love the next baby as much..

'I am hoping I will love you
each time I find you, usurping another's cot.'

The clothes, the birth, the shadows of Ella as Rebecca cradles Molly, how to eventually tell Molly about her sister. the true pleasures and delights of a child who is well, the pilgrimage to the seashore, wading into the sea where Ella's ashes were scattered, but ultimately how time, though it's considered the worst thing to say to anyone, does do its work, and heals..

'Come and hold my hand, little one,
stand beside me in your small shoes,

let's head for your undiscovered life,
your mother's ready now, let's run.'